Officially Tired

I haven't had many moments in the last 2 weeks to just be...to reflect, rest, and give my time to...well, nothing. I think we take those brief lapses in time for granted because when you lack them, they seem so much more golden.

I had the grand opportunity to go see Superman (3D by the way...) with lovely Carmen. It ended up being one incredibly random night. We met some strangers in the line up and ended up sitting with them...not only sitting with them, but sitting in the middle of their group of friends. I came away with a nickname, and we both came away with many laughs (photos to come when I charge my batteries).

The one night I thought that I would be able to go to bed early, my brother got very ill and I had to take him to hospital (like the good sister I am), and I ended up being there until 2:30am while he ended up spending the night. I had the misfortune of having to be up at 5:30am...a grand total of 3 hours. Thankfully, Rebecca was gracious to me and took the rest of my shift so that I was able to go home and sleep and bit and take care of very ill David.

So much change has been taking place. I no longer live in Linden, but reside in the basement of my parent's house. I leave for England in 3 days (so exciting), and head to Abbotsford in a month and a half. I have been experiencing emotions that I never thought that I would...this whole thing has been harder than I ever thought...thankfully I have friends who have gone through this very journey, and have felt the same way as I do and so I am not walking through this alone. Although the difficulty of this is true, there is also so much joy and excitment in doing what I've been called to do and what I have wanted to do for so many years! I remember the feeling I had when I was leaving Bangkok in February, and how devastatingly sad I was. I can't wait to be where I love to be! But the other side of that is leaving the people that I love. I actually believe whole heartedly that if I wasn't sad about leaving then I wasn't doing what I was supposed to do while I was here, which is loving people and sharing myself with them. So, it's good and it's healthy. So please, I want everyone to know that it's not easy for me to leave you. I love you all dearly and have been affected by each of you in some unique and beautiful way...basically, that means you are all going to have to plan a trip to Thailand sometime in the near future. How about it?

Anyway, if you see me wandering around in a catatonic state over the next few days stop and talk, but please don't be offended if I struggle with forming words or have brief lapses in memory. That's tired Jess acting on my behalf.