I've been feeling a little 'overcast' as of late. Finding coping with life a little difficult. Sure, it's nothing that I won't get through, but at the moment I feel as if I'm trudging. Kind of like Atrayu (sp?) in The Neverending Story, when he's going through the bogs of sadness and everything feels grim. All you can see is the bog, and all you can feel is the sadness.
I guess there are number of different things contributing to these emotions...business, lack of alone time, or down time, the weather (cursed cold and snow!!!), too much caffiene (which I have recently cut out of my diet), problems in relationships (resulting in lonliness), and just the normal trials of day to day life. I know that at the end of the day Jesus can be to me all that I need, but at the moment I am trudging through the bogs. This may be also why I have neglected to write in my blog. I feel that there is nothing all too valuable to write about, and I struggled with the idea of being vulnerable on the world wide web...no faces, no emotions, no contact...just words.
And yet here I am.
About Me
- Jessica
- Things have changed...I have changed. I'm just trying to do the things that I love and and figure out the rest out as I go.
7 comments:
The Blog Bog.
Well, it could be worse.
It could be the Bog of Eternal Stench.
Love you, sister...
Paula...I'm so glad you referenced Labrynth. What a great film! Watched it last night in fact (possibly for the four-hundredth time...my movie is getting worn out). You're right...it could be worse. We need to hang out sometime. WAY too long!!!
hey Jess. yeah, I don't know what my take is on the whole blogger vulnerability deal. I guess you could always post some articles entitled: "the worst things I've ever done", "my most embarrassing and shameful moments", "my weaknesses and personal failures"...ya know, the general things mostly ALL people blog about.
but no really, I can relate to life getting ya down. I mean, its a gift, and I'm grateful to be here, but sometimes I'm like "what the heck am I doing"? and get stressed out. feeling trapped and frusterated. not knowing what to do or where to be. anyways...you're not alone in the bogs... :)
Well Jess, even when you are in the bogs, you still manage to brighten my day. Thanks for just being who you are and for being part of my family's life.
And by the way, participating in network gaming definitely qualifies you as a gamer... not to mention getting a higher score on Battlefield than me! Just embrace it. You're a gamer. It's so much easier when you can just admit it!
Ok ok ok Daryl. You dont have to twist my arm so hard! I'm................................NOT A GAMER!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Alright, I really loved it, and was pretty proud that I kicked your gaming butt. I guess I could get into it.
I can't believe you reffered to Never Ending Story. I was talking about that movie two nights ago with friends, then it was on TV this morning (how I spent the morning, sad I know)... and then you blogged about it. Sooooo weird.
Yum rocks.
Yeah I can relate to the bog. I almost cried at the horse part, because that's how I've been feeling for the past couple of days. (Not that my horse is sinking into quick sand) just sad I guess.
4 days since this post & I hope you are feeling better. I really do relate to you saying that relationships get you down as well as the resulting loneliness. I'm in a platonic relationship and even though it's OK, by it's very definition it's limited and there's times I wish I could put my arms around someone. Why are good people lonely sometimes? it's sad.
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